Thursday, August 31, 2006

Work work work

Why do we have to work?
- For the money
- For pleasure
- For idealism
- For the sake of having activity in daily life
- For networking
- For socializing
- For make our parents proud of us
- Just the next step after graduation
- For self identity
- For free internet connection
- For free insurance

What ever your reason is, just love what you do....

I love what i do and feel passionate about it, hopefuly then the money will come hehehe... amien..

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Love comes again

I found my new love! I feel so alive, finally i can have this passionate feeling again, thought i've lost it.

Had a chance to see him in person last Sunday, he's soo damn hot! He made me imagine things. I love everything about him, the way he moves, the way he dances amused me. And his voice... oh his voice is sooooo sexy....

Gosh, i wish i can feel him in my arm so i can touch him gently. Never had this kind of feeling before for someone like him, those kind of people are never become my interest, but he's different.

Don't know when can i see him again, should i chase him? Oh well, it's kinda too much ya, i'm happy enough just to see his picture (yes, my computer wallpaper is his pic, so damn cute!)

I love you, JD Fortune!

Shallow me? Maybe I am, call me whatever do you want to... it's free country man... I just love this hottie!

Well, at least i still have that feeling, eventhough for celebrity like him he he he

Jomblo akut

New trend among mature females who live in big city like Jakarta. Why do i say new trend? Yes because i have many yes many female friends who are single, or jomblo. Hmm.. Jomblo sounds more fun than single ya :)

Does being jomblo is a choice? or given situation that you want to change, but hardly can?

My best friend said she can not live without man, so she prefer to play game with 2 men at the same time eventhough her boyfriends (yep, boyfriends - with s) can not give assurance she needs rather than being alone or jomblo.

My other friend hasn't have any romantic relationship since her last BF at 1997, wow.. what a record... She's whining about wanting a BF so deeply, she doesn't ask for such a high standard tho, she just simply wants BF who loves her at any stake. She's kinda a homey girl, she loves being at home with her parents or her DVDs (yes, she has 1 special made cupboard for her DVDs). Sometimes, i thought that's why she hasn't find any BF yet, because she seldom go out or when she goes out not for long as her parents will call her and ask her not to come home late. Maybe she needs to go out often so that she can meet new people rather than stay at home all the time, maybe..

But, i have other friend that quite an outgoing gal. You can easily find her at new place/club/resto or any party in town, you can say she's a party animal and always update at any trend but she's still single or jomblo at the moment. Her last BF was 2 years ago, believe it or not she even ask me to hunt man for her at my building hahaha crazy girl...

Hmm.. 2 different situation, but same result: JOMBLO AKUT!

What's wrong with them? Nothing wrong, they are beautiful and independent women or maybe they are too independent? Maybe... And how come they are still single?

Another story, friend of a friend told me that her friend is such a beautiful person, funny, kind, success and graduated from Esmod Paris (yes Paris!) but her dream man choose small city nurse over her. She can't understand why he did that, or maybe he's being intimidating by her so he choose regular girl? Maybe... That was my thought tho.

Nothing wrong of being jomblo tho, we can go anywhere and anytime we want, we can do anything we want, we can go out with 1st cute guy we meet at the club without any objection or even cause a fight with our BF. But, it nice to have someone to share your feeling, your deepest secrets, your dreams and your passion.

We could analyze everthing we want, but i believe if the time is not rite then no matter how hard you try to find a BF, it just won't work :). Love is like a butterfly, the more you chase it the more it will fly away from you, but when you let it go it will come to you even when you're not expecting it (taken from SIM F blog )

My friend told me today just to enjoy the situation of being jomblo, yes.. enjoy it while you can, there will be time when you gonna miss it while you're in the relationship.

Friday, August 11, 2006


Mama thank you for who I am
Thank you for all the things I'm not
Forgive me for the words unsaid
For the times
I forgot

Mama remember all my life
You showed me love,You sacrificed
Think of those young and early days
How I've changed
along the way

And I know you believed
And I know you had dreams
And I'm sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
I miss you, I miss you

Mama forgive the times you cried
Forgive me for not making right
All of the storms I may have caused
And I've been wrongDry your eyes

Mama I hope this makes you smile
I hope you're happy with my life
At peace with every choice I made
How I've changed
Along the way
And I know you believed in all of my dreams
And I owe it all to you, Mama

A beautiful song by Il Divo

I love you Mom...


Here I am, lost in the light of the moon that comes through my window
Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses
It's you and the roses

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow
Heal me from all this sorrow
As I let you go I will find my way when I see your eyes
Now I'm living in your afterglow

Here I am, lost in the ashes of time, but who wants tomorrow?
In between the longing to hold you again
I'm caught in your shadow, I'm losing control
My mind drifts away, we only have today

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow
Heal me from all this sorrow
As I let you go I will find my way
I will sacrifice 'til the blinding day when I see your eyes
Now I'm living in your afterglow

When the veils are gone as I let you go, as I let you go

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow
Heal me from all this sorrow
As I let you go I will find my way, I will sacrifice
Now I'm living in your afterglow

Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses
It's you who is closest

Oh i love J.D Fortune when he sings this song, soooo sexy.....

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Tipe cowok

Pertanyaan yang paling susah dijawab adalah tipe cowok yang disuka kayak gmana sih? Hmm... bingung banget nih jawabnya, karena kalo di track back dari yang udah-udah kok nggak ada benang merahnya ya, even di fisik dan diluar fisik nah loh... Apa emang bener gw suka variety? But variety is good tho, biar kita nggak bosen hehehe

Friend of mine suka cowo yang chubby n rada ndut, enak buat senderan dan di peluk katanya. Yang lain justru nggak suka cowo berkulit gelap, nggak asik ah kesannya dekil kalo terang alias putih kan kinclong dan lagi biar anak gw nggak item lagi itu alasan dia hihihi... Ada lagi anak kantor yang suka cewe Ori (Oriental or oriental look lah at least), kalo diliat dari track recordnya sih emang bener, smua cewe yang pernah dipacarin or deket or cem-ceman or what ever lah itu semuanya ori atau looks like ori, konsisten anaknya nih hihihi.
Ada lagi yang suka cowo anak kantoran, lah ini lebi absurb lagi karena kan semua orang kalo di pakein jas + baju rapi dah kayak orang kantoran tuw jatohnya hihihi
Semua sah-sah aja seh, karena kan masing-masing orang punya preference ya, sama aja kayak milih baju pasti punya selera yang beda-beda.

Tapi basic qualification pastinya kayak gini: baik, setia, jujur, pengertian, nggak sombong jagoan lagi pula pintar (lhoo ini mah Mas Boy dong hihihi) dan sayang sama gw, bisa masuk ke lingkungan temen-temen gw dan juga keluarga, bisa ngejamin hidup gw 7 turunan (lhoo...) Yaahh itu mah semua orang juga pengen lah, tapi kan kalo ditanya spesifikasinya ya harus lebih dari ini dong..

Nah, for me.. Agak susah untuk jawab tipe cowo yang disuka kayak gmana, karena yang pasti harus ketemu dan ngobrol dulu, kalo nyambung dan ada chemistry baru deh liat kemana arahnya.

Put it this way, how do you know that food is taste good if you don't try it? Yang penting kan dicoba dulu kalo nggak suka atau nggak sesuai selera ya bisa brenti makannya or kalo masih acceptable ya lanjut lah, kali aja nanti kita juga bisa suka.. Jadi intinya adalah proses itu penting. Bener gak?

Monday, August 07, 2006

Leo it is...

Outgoing personality..
Takes risks.
Feeds on attention.
No self-control.
Kind hearted.
Loud and boisterous.
VERY revengeful.
Easy to get along with and talk to.
Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude.
Likes talking and singing.
Loves music.
Easily distracted.
Hates not being trusted.
BIG imagination.
Loves to be loved.
Hates studying.
In need of "that someone".
Longs for freedom.
Rebellious when withheld or restricted.
Lives by "no pain no gain" caring.
Always a suspect.
"charming" or "beautiful" to everyone.
Strong willed.
A fighter.

That'a what I am of being a Leo :)

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Simple thought

Which one is the worst?

Miss being loved by someone?


Miss someone?

Being a Leo, i would say miss being loved by someone is the worst feeling than you miss someone himself coz the feeling is absurb and abstract.

If you miss someone, you just go and meet them and whalaa... you will feel better. But if you miss being loved by someone, then it would be difficult to cure coz the feeling is beyond that missing feeling it self...

Or miss being loved is same thing as being loneliness?

It's not a simple thought ya, it's complicated one for me :) Or.. the thought is only a state of mind?